I leave 2010 with bittersweet contentment. Last year was so surreal that I it almost feels like it never happened. Three huge loses of key figure heads in our family, including the most devastating loss of my dad. An overwhelming, unsatisfying job. A teetering relationship. A huge weight of guilt and uncertainty about not being a good enough parent. Increasing loss of self. It's enough to make someone go mad. But I survived. I am still standing. I am still strong. I am still dealing with a few of these lingering emotions, I admit. I accept that things are as they should be. I accept that stress is brought upon us by our own ideas of how things should be happening, instead of us accepting the reality of how they actually are. I leave this year with mended wounds and an open heart.
You will remain a faint memory of lessons learned. The rest I let go of, like grains of sand floating away from me in the most powerful oceans waves. We are through.